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“What you make?” I knew she had me, I had been found out.
“I was just coming around by the Rodenberg when a panther sprang out of the woods and knocked me off my Velo.”
“You are a Luftgucker.”
“That means my head’s in the clouds?”
“Something like that.”
“No, it was a panther, I swear.” I didn’t want to tell her I had fallen in the full dazzle of light, in a fresh rain-washed sky, drinking in the sweet air… when Hans-Ruedi passed and honked; when waving back, regaining my attention too late to adjust, I hit the curb, spilling ass-over-teakettle in a heap up on the sidewalk. Disentangling myself from the bike, I was okay; not even shaken, really, with only a leaking silver-dollar sized strawberry on my elbow to show. The bike seemed fine. I wasn’t going very fast. But Edith would notice; that was for sure.
I found Hans-Ruedi unloading his truck. “Hallo, Sir,” he extended his hand in greeting.
“Hi, what’s up.?”
“I have a little time; do you care for a beer?”
“Sure. Hast du ein Pflaster?”
“I have somewhere… you fall off your Velo?”
“I hit the curb.”
“Let’s go upstairs, I’ll make a search.” I followed him and rinsed off the wound in the kitchen sink while he rummaged around. A collector of tools, appliances, musical instruments—he has ten upright basses—and memorabilia, Hans-Ruedi has a Celtic millwheel found in a load of stone taken from the shore of Lake Constance. Long before the Roman conquest—in 58 B.C. with the defeat of the Gauls by Julius Caesar—there were people here milling grain. The Romans stayed until 260 A.D. with the invasion of the Alemannians; perhaps the stone was ancient then. The kitchen was cluttered with dozens of pots, spoons, and ladles hanging from the walls. The scrape didn’t look too bad. I pulled away a hanging piece of skin. Hans-Ruedi kept up a running commentary from the other room. “Aha, I have found…”
“Great, let me dry this off with a paper towel.” We sat at the table while I put the Band-Aid on. Hans-Ruedi opened two beers. “I have only time for one.”
“Thanks for the first aid.”
“You must be careful on a Velo.”
“That’s what she’s always telling me… she’s going to take one look at this and know.”
Back on my bike I went on in the direction I’d been going, turning left just before the RR tracks, with fields stretching away on my left. The trail crossed under the highway, the bypass road that leads to Stein am Rhine, and along past a block of Schrebergartens, then left again along the base of the Rodenberg, the mountain east of town. Making a loop I was now headed back towards the river, re-crossing the highway, beneath me this time, past recently harvested potato fields, joining up with the old road leading back to town. I pedaled on, past houses on either side, then into the old Stadt, through the arch under the clock tower where the road squeezes to one lane. Pulling into the cobbled drive I could see our car in the garage. I was going to tell her, but waiting for the appropriate moment, it slipped my mind. “What do you say we go check out the garden; we still have plenty of daylight.”
“We have still tomatoes?”
“Lots… and we have celery; and a few jalapeños still.” A cold August notwithstanding, our third year with the garden has been a great one, giving us an abundance of organic green beans, beets, onions, leeks, endive, red cabbage, and broccoli. And yellow squash; we raised a ton of yellow squash. This was our best year yet for tomatoes, since we put up a plastic roof to keep the rain off. The garden looked good; resting under a fresh carpet of mulch we brought in from Hans-Ruedi’s chipping pile. We selected old chips from a partly rotted pile that had been there several years. I had read that chips need to season or they will rob the soil of nitrogen. In gardening, as in house keeping, my habits differ some between me and our neighbors, who keep their rows straight.
I had my pullover sleeve covering the wound, and had actually forgotten it myself, until just before we went to bed. But then I realized too late that the Pflaster had fallen off, and that’s when she saw it and found me out. I didn’t mention I’d had a glass of wine and smoked a joint before I went out, but she probably surmised that. I’ve long been out of the habit of driving a car stoned; but riding my bike was another deal, my thing. A rediscovered pleasure, I haven’t ridden a bike so much since I was fourteen. I don’t recall how often I used to crash back then; I was always getting into scrapes of one kind or another…. But Luftgucker, that was a new one to savor; sky-looker, that was me. I’ve always had my head in the clouds too.





Shot at SAIC, Sharp building, 4th floor, on a Sunday


The morning in gloss, its hiding young.
The woodpecker's loose
robe in halves, until it writes
a paragraph inside a velvet pocket.
A fat lipstick smack for a head
took my throat when it flew.
Haven't I grown to like the sudden
stab. I've swallowed a field, as
dying samurai after a drawn sword
to battle. That startle odd red
a tassel dangling from a shield.
If I've stood up
like an obdient prisoner;
haven't I cradled any open light?
Circling eyes lined in the screech
of an owl. Haven't I remembered that
hollow tunnel my head unpatched
a galaxy through; the white inside
the tail fanning like an organ
cut. This can't be too good
to be true. It's no path.
It is how a field melts back
into grass with no movement;
and there
under moments.
And being sadly helpless allows you to realize that most people are kind and will lend assistance, even if being helped makes you feel more pitifully vulnerable than you ever wanted to feel. I’ve noticed that men are particularly kind, which makes perfect sense as I am a female and would thus tend to bring out a male’s protective qualities, while women, except one’s truest friends, tend not to want to be bothered, really. I understand this as well. Women generally have a lot of caring and helping already on their plates. And perhaps the supply of caring and obligation grows ever more limited in our modern times.
adapted as well by The Shark), “Do not mistake me for who I am not.” But even more than being liked, I like thinking about how people like being liked, and the behaviors they display towards this end. Rush was actually making a lot of the points I had long believed were true. The worse trap one can fall into is shaping one’s life around being liked. Relationships of all kinds, not just of the romantic variety, are often doomed by each party’s overwhelming urge to put his or her best foot forward and fail to reveal one’s true self in fear of not being liked, a truism that is widely exploited by advertising copywriters, but one that is in no danger of failing to be perpetuated even by folks who know better as they are no longer 15 years old. “You must make yourself happy,” Rush, the paradoxically self-proclaimed “lovable little fuzzball,” continued. “No one else can make you happy. You must be your true self in order to make yourself happy, and going around wanting to be liked, especially by people you know most likely really dislike you, will not enable you to be happy with yourself.” And so on.
“…the city’s rich people, unlike their counterparts in California, have always kept a close eye on the eastern establishment and eastern ways. They send their kids to eastern prep schools. They swoon in the presence of eastern art professionals, artists as well as art intellectuals. They rarely forsake the lakefront to venture west of Halsted Street where Mayor Daley’s [père, of course] real Chicago spreads for a light-year. Chicago’s patrons—whether the Art Institute’s Gentiles or the Museum of Contemporary Art’s Jews—are totally devoted to Chicago at the level of their business and commercial interests, but forever envious of the culture of the Atlantic seaboard. Hence, when supporting the arts in Chicago, their impulse is to go national, not native. The better collectors have bought most of what they own in New York…”.As the source was a faded Xerox, I have not the author’s name of this published article. But I do have the date: 1976. That’s thirty years ago. Apparently what I shall dub the Shark Complaint has been a long-standing one in Chicago. And if this article is any indication, apparently others have been outspoken. Whether they mysteriously disappeared to have their broken bodies float up years later from some murky pond, I do not know. Apparently Derek Guthrie of the late New Art Examiner and quite the water-churner in his day is alive and well back in his native England.
traffic, or is temporarily blinded because one has failed to bring one’s reading glasses along—all temporary situations, of course—one realizes it is better to be helped than be liked. And while one is thinking, in a Chris Ware-like way, “This person is certainly despising me while he stretches out his hand to pick me up off the floor,” it is good to witness one’s fellow human being acting humanely regardless of whether they like you or not. It is good to realize that while one may not like a fellow human being, in fact one may very much dislike him and for sound reasons, one is better off for being in a community. Now what was that about Air America going bankrupt? 






“I started off by focusing on my childhood and my mother. But the work started to grow. Since my father passed away, I have been able to include him and myself at my present age.”
This work examines the trauma and uncertainty carried from childhood. In particular, I am referencing my own upbringing as a Polish immigrant. There is an undercurrent of helplessness and misdirection linked to a sort of schizophrenic parenting, excommunication, and constant movement. Typically, the perception of children handed down by my elders was that children did not have a choice. Frequently, I heard a Polish equivalent of the phrase “Children should be seen not heard”. I am attempting to give these children voices.
These photographs are projection-based installations. The models are mannequins and their faces are projections. The faces of the children are slides that my father took of me when he was still involved in my life. The other slides are present day images that I have shot of my mom, my dad, and myself. My goal is to reconstruct my own childhood, empowering the past for better or for worse. The result is a troubling recreation of events that may seem disturbing but are far less in context to the real events that transpired.








Art in Display, a storefront art exhibition October 13-15, 2006
Opening Reception: October 13, 2006 6-9PM
Meet the Artists: October 14, 2006 3pm
Location: Participating stores on W Division Street between Damen and Ashland
Chicago, IL – Art in Display is an art exhibition curated by Kristyna Comer composed of storefronts along W Division St between Damen and Ashland. Art is Display features art installations by local and national artists in the stores’ display windows, placing art in a new, public venue. Media include photography, sculpture, drawing, fiber, video, mixed media, and more.
Art in Display is participating in the eleventh annual Chicago Artists Month, an event that showcases emerging and established local artists. The Chicago Artists Month featured artist and participant in Art in Display, Ursula Sokolowska, will be exhibiting her work that combines installation and photography at D/Vision, an optical boutique, located at 1756 W Division.
Art in Display is a curatorial experiment that utilizes commercial space for its visual dominance and accessibility to a wide audience, placing art exhibition in a public-viewing domain. The storefronts offer new installation possibilities and activate a new space for art exhibition.
The opening reception will take place at the stores along Division St. on Friday, October 13 from 6 – 9 PM, including Habit, Cattails, Casa de Soul, D/Vision Optical, Alliance Bakery, An Je Nu, Lola, Pump, Noir, and Nina. Artists include Peripheral Media Projects (Brooklyn, NY), Natalia Ivancevich, Karin Patzke, Ursula Sokolowska, Dee Clements, Uninhabitable Mansions (Brooklyn, NY), Ben Durham (Midway, KY), Package Deals (New York, NY), Kim Hoffman, Eric Portis (Denver, CO), and Anne Lass.
Please visit www.artindisplay.com for additional information and a complete listing of events.
Texas-size career decision awaits Nicholas TremulisAndy Downing
Published October 6, 2006By most standards, Nicholas Tremulis has lived something of a charmed life. The Chicago-born singer has recorded with Keith Richards at the Rolling Stone guitarist's house, performed live with Rick Danko just days before the Band bassist's death in 1999 and organized a series of charity shows for Neon Street for Homeless Youth dubbed "The Waltz." The annual event, which took place at the Metro from 2000-'04, drew the likes of Billy Corgan, Alejandro Escovedo and Jeff Tweedy.
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